US presidential debate

I think anyone that was paying attention had witness the most cringe and depressing presidential debate ever.

Whether an American or not, knowing one of those two will hold the office that has great impact to the world, including controlling nuclear weapons, was extremely depressing.

At that moment, my thought was, is there any point to saving and planning for the future?

I personally feel like I should shift even more focus and resources to enjoying the “now”.

Workdays

I am kind of feeling why we have five-day workdays a week.

I often work weekend shifts that connect the work days to 10-12 days. And I was really feeling it this past week.

On the 7th day, I started having headaches. On the 8th day, I was simply burnt out. My efficiency has gone down so much that I am not quite sure what I have done from 8th to 10th day this time.

The 4-day weekend that follows is nice though.

However, it seems I’d need more than a week of vacation at a time to completely get away from work.

Not the easiest thing.

Corporate life… I know I need to make adjustments to get used to this healthily.

I wonder what I can do.

Just water

I think I am like water.

What I am hardly changes, but I change forms to adapt to whatever shapes are around me.

I may be colored.

I may have my temperature changes.

I may lose some of me as I go.

But at the end of the day, I am still just water.

I want to find the best temperature for me.

But that really isn’t up to me, is it?

Focus

I am realigning my focus to improve my work life balance in the short term.

Honestly, I have been so swapted with work that I don't think I have been focused on anything; just robotically deal with things in front of me.

I have also been stressed and frustrated with things that don't really matter.

It just happened that I needed to set goals for work. I had a chance to reflect on myself and think about my life for a bit.

• I need to work on reducing work hours. I have had too much overtime in the past few months. I need to manage workload and teamwork better to work unnecessarily long.

• I need to care less about raise and promotion. It is not in my control. Just do the best I can at what I can do but nothing more.

• I should work on myself and what I want to do more.

• Physical health is just as important as mental health. Let's hit a healthy weight this year.

• Set goals and keep track of them. Big and small - small steps towards big goals.

• Constantly review myself - to be better and to live better.

Let's go.

Self reflection

I wonder if I am overconfident or too full of myself sometimes. Or do I simply have a wall so high to protect my fragile self that I seems to be on the high horse when I stand on it.

I will never know my own image in others’ eyes. But I will try my best to be the best of me; not to please, not to be selfish, just be the best that I can be.